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Name: Kim
Interests: I have discovered the art of running. I'm still fat...but, ey - I have to start somewhere!
Expertise: thinking I'm an expert. silly me.
Message: message me
Member Since:
3/30/2004
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| i bet you haven't heard a word I said.
I am done.
just moving.
on.
...to
off.
fuck you for not having enough strength in your heart to pull through.
so in the end.
I too (again copying mikemike) will do a rundown....no paticular ORder
Liz H. OMG i'm the biggest hypocrite haha. so nice getting to know you a little better...ummm hang out more...I only have like 2 weeks!
Andrew E K. ...boy. i'm going to miss you. i hope you stay on track. You and I have been together since we could understand what a "friend" meant and I have a hard time comprehending that we will be apart for so long... You are ALWAYS there to just call and hang out...ready for anything. cool
Jen M. We both have a lot to learn about life...but we too have both already learned a lot. Keep it real...and keep it rational. I hope to see you heading up to Columbia or Northern sometime in the near future.... :)
Jeni A. ....you are such a cool cousin/person/friend. I admire/look up to you SOO much you don't even know. You represent a good seed of the family?? We too need to hang out here quick-style before I go! We always have so much fun....AND such interesting conversations. p.s. your jacket is still at my house!
Sarah H. You are such a special person! I hope you have fun in K.C. and make wise decisions and such. Stay away from the bad boys...they're bad. Keep loving.
Michael effin F. You rock my world. You got me seriously thinking about spirituality and would never let me get away with kicking my own ass. We have discovered what ...love... is in a sense beyond the superficial. There is something about your presence that brightens the darkest abyss. We will always keep in touch - we will always cause trouble - we will always bicker - and we will eventually change the world. Please, continue calling me on things and keeping me in my place - I really DO appreciate it.
Shannon B. Save a horse. ride a cow.freakin.boy
Joanna H. laugh. more. and more.
Jaya K. You have a beautiful soul. You are compassionate and hard at the same time. There is a lot of growing to do yet...but you will take and embrace it - and that is what makes you extraordinary. you may be smart, but there is sooo much to you... p.s. Thai tonight at 5:00, don't forget!
Patrick S. I love you, Goodbye.
Regan H. College will be quite a ride for you. Good luck
Cousin Larry. I LOVE YOU LARRY BOY. I wish you would have just been my brother. Or that you would have just lived with us...instead of your Dad. ...I always wanted a brother, and you would have been an awesome one hahaha.... even though you pretty much WERE....basically living with us for summers at a time.... blah blah.
Amie. I'm so glad we've bonded this summer. We are cool. and We read books, about people and things.
Mom. I love you. forever. Thank You.
Erica. You're stupid - but what can I say. I always tricked you into cleaning my room...even when we didn't share. ...I think you're definitely a co-dependant haha.
Brenda Sisson. your faith in God is amazing. Your dedication and strength is astounding. your creativity and love for others is taking you to places I'm sure you never could have imagined. Thankyou so much for always being there for me to call and ask silly questions...and for all the lunch dates...for all the laughs. You are a wonderful role model for your kids - they are truely blessed.
KT - I have no words to explain what you mean to me...all i have is thank you, and it is not enough. You have/would drop EVERYTHING for me if/when I would need it. You take time out of your personal life for me. You are such a strong person - I admire you like no other... I have learned SOOO much from you. More than I could EVER learn in any class room...more than I could ever learn from any text book. You speak with your heart, not with your mind. It is you who I trust the most - and you have proven to me over and over WHY I should trust you. Somehow, you have understood everything, big and small. You took me by the hand and guided me through that forest...then showed me the mountain I had to climb....stood at the top and told me of how beautiful it was up there - reached out your hand and waited, encouraging me the entire way...picking me up and dusting me off every time I fell...
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| My pee smells like coffee.
..thanks, that was fun... | | |
| You were new
you were bold
you were patient
you were kind
you were adventurous
you were brave
you were optimistic
you were wise
you were never swayed
you were happy
you were shameless
you were at ease
you were a leader
I have to gasp as I see the height from which you
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Your Majesty
He's jumping
He's jumping
He's falling
please
catch him in your arms.
I guess its true- what I’ve always heard
We make ourselves feel better with hurtful words
And more times than I even care to know
We hurt the ones we love the most
Forgiveness is what I’m looking for
But you don’t owe me anything at all
I'm sorry, It feels like I’m stabbing my own back
I can’t believe I’m drowning in the words I should not own
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we gather around
all in a room
fastsen our belts
engage in dialogue
we'd all slow down
not rest without guilt
not lie without fear
we would stay
and respond
and expand
and include
and allow
and forgive
and enjoy
and evolve
and discern
and inquire
and accept
and admit
and divulge
and open
and reach out
and speak up
we'd open our arms
we'd all jump in
we'd all coast down
into safety nets
we would share
and listen
and support
and welcome
be propelled
by passion not
invest in outcomes
we would breathe
and be charmed
and amused
by difference
be gentle
and make room
for every emotion
we'd provide forums
we'd all speak out
we'd all be heard
we'd all feel seen
we'd rise post-obstacle
more defined
more grateful
we would heal
be humbled
and be unstoppable
we'd hold close
and let go
and know when
to do which
we'd release
and disarm
and stand up
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| I have today off. that means: TIME FOR POSTAGE. and art. and ...exercise! and other stuff.
I realize that for some of you w/ small res. computers, my bg is HUGE. sorry.
ummm. yum.
"LETS WRITE TODAY" she says.....
I wont see my dear friends as much
Male friends especially - I'll no longer be in touch
i'll change my hobbies to match yours.
I'll stop reading my favorite books
I won't spend all this selfish time alone
I'll cater to you and hang on your every word.
.....I'll be subserdiant and spineless.
.....I'll be opninoinless and silent
.....I'll be the prettiest appendage to ever lose herself
I'll redefine self-sacrifice
live my life as apolagetic compromise
i know you'll leave if i rock the boat
I'll be low maintenance and agreeable
I won't talk about my dreams so much
I will listen to you for hours and wont need anything.
.....I'll be subserdiant and spineless.
.....I'll be opinionless and silent
.....I'll be the prettiest appendage to ever lose herself.
...............HAHAHAHA mmmhm. wake up...........
What else what else?
hello mr. man.
I am the perfect target screen
for your blindly fueled rage
I bear the blunt of your long bearing pain
I don't mind helping you out
but I want you to remember my name.
.....Its not all me
.....Its not all my fault
.....I may remind you
.....but I wont take it all on
.....I won't take it all on.
Lest I find my voice
find the strength to stand up to you
lest I sustain my limit
and take on only what is mine to
.....its not all me
.....its not all my fault
.....I can't take it all on
yes. yes. i must confess. i love therapy. I love unabashadly balling my eyes out. And then making lunch dates for future expendetures.
Everytime in a funk - I picture a different choice
my tendency to want to do away feels natural
and my urgency to dream of softer places seems understandable
but the only way out is through
the only way we'll feel better
the only way out is through, ultimately
My tendency to want to hide away seems easier
We could just walk away and hide our heads in the sand
we could just call it quits only to start all over again
- with somebody else
.....but the only way out is through
.....its the only way we'll feel better
.....the only way out is through, ultimately
college move in countdown = 22 days.
I'm not jealous - i don't get moved by much
I'm not enraged - not insecure as such
I'm not going insane - rational stays in touch
.....I'm not tortured by how often you're busy - i've got things to do
.....I'm not dissapointed about how you don't miss me - because I don't need you to.
i'm not needy - i don't get clingy much
I'm not scared - I'm not afraid as such
I'm' not dependant - rock solid stays in touch
.....So much energy to prove to YOU who I can't possibly be
.....So much energy to prove to YOU why I'm not who you hate for me to be
.....I'm not saddened and I don't miss you - i have moved on too
.....I'm not concerned about your new lover - I've a new lover too
i'm not depressed - I don't get down that much
I'm not despondant - i'm not dark as such
I'm never sad - keeps chin up stays in touch
i can't find my camera cord. rarrh. | | |
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